Well I'm gonna jump into a professional mode of life from March 1st onwards. Preceding this I had nearly spent a life of a recluse. No particular time for me to wake up or to go to bed. Nor there used to be any pressure from my parents and sister if I go on for maximum 4 days without having to wash myself of my dirt. Don't come into an agreement that I'm in favor of this way to live. But I don't know why I used to be like that. There can't be rational explanation for everything in this world. Sometimes lethargy takes lead in our lives and drags us, which can lead to many different situations. It can be a disaster or a profoundly life changing period. As for me I'm forcefully being thrown out of this circle by the hand of my employer. Thanks to TCS!.
I think these periods of intense self-abasement may result due to combination of various reasons. They usually follow after a highly productive and creative life or a period of systematic education after which you get a long period of interval(this may be my case) or when personal lives are hurt(again this happens due to 'n' number of reasons).
Well as I have stated earlier these kind of periods may change the apex of your life. I was drawn into literature. I have read many books during this time. 'The Idiot', 'Crime and Punishment' and 'Notes from the Underground ' by Fyodor Dostoevsky, 'The Stranger' by Albert Camus, 'The Death of Ivan Ilych' by Leo Tolstoy, '1984' by George Orwell, 'The Metamorphosis' by Franz Kafka, 'Siddhartha' by Herman Hesse, 'The Catcher in the Rye' by J.D. Salinger, 'Candid' by Voltaire, Short stories of Anton Chekhov. These were the ones which were completed.
'Sons and Lovers' by D.H. Lawrence, 'Robinson Crusoe' by Daniel Defoe, 'To Kill a Mocking Bird' by Harper Lee, 'Moby Dick' by Herman Melville, 'Animal Farm' by George Orwell, 'Walden' by Thoreau, 'Zen and the art of Motorcycle Maintenance' by Robert Pirsig, 'The Godfather' by Mario Puzo were the ones which were started by me and still to be completed.
I have had seen many movies which were so many that only some can be mentioned now and each movie can in turn be turned into a blog post. I had crossed the boundaries of Hollywood and started to experiment with different kinds of world movies. Japenese,German,Swedish,French were some of the languages of the movies I had seen. Worth mentioning ones were - 'Apocalypse Now', 'Amelie', 'Annie Hall', 'Fargo', 'Groundhog Day', 'In Bruges', 'Rashomon, 'Rear Window', 'There Will Be Blood', 'The Life of Others', 'American History X', 'Once a upon a time in America', 'Once a upon a time in the West'. I have to stop the list or else it goes on. All are thought provoking and are so beautiful. As I have already said, I'll plan to write about some of them considering one at a time. These movies span different genres like comedy, war, drama, thriller,etc. Some movies have a philosophical perspective.
I was introduced to different kinds of philosophies and perceptions of life. One philosopher whose influence is profound on me is Nietzsche. Also the absurdist philosophy proposed by Albert Camus and also had a deep impact on me. The human condition described in the writings of Franz Kafka and Dostoevsky are so powerful. As a whole I came to perceive life differently. This made me think that I should have taken literature instead science. But anyway I still can proceed my study without any systematic education which may not be possible in the case of science.
As for my parents, they were so deeply concerned about me that I have lost all the eagerness to work and have become so lazy that after I moved into job that I may suffer due to the drastic change in the routine. But I was so unconcerned and adamant that I never used to listen to them. I know that I have to face all the hassles of my new professional life. There goes a Telugu proverb "We can wake up a man who is sleeping but not the one who is acting ". Frankly, there was also a time when my parents got disgusted about me due to my way of life.
I started learning guitar and I enjoyed a lot in practicing it. My sir's way of informal teaching encouraged me. I am also taking a course on .NET just to be sure that I should be in touch with that technology.
Well this sums up my idle period of life with mixed results with hard inclination towards depression, over-weight and a bad routine. On a positive note I have purchased an Android phone and using this I can calculate the calories burned when I do exercise. Due to this motivation I have exercised some days but have taken equivalent content of food which balanced everything. Damn!
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How did I forget music? I have explored different genres of music ranging from metal(black, death, thrash), R & B, rap, hip-hop, electronic, folk rock, industrial rock and metal, pop rock, space rock, Western Classical music, etc. It would be unrewarding for me to list all the bands and artists here.
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How did I forget music? I have explored different genres of music ranging from metal(black, death, thrash), R & B, rap, hip-hop, electronic, folk rock, industrial rock and metal, pop rock, space rock, Western Classical music, etc. It would be unrewarding for me to list all the bands and artists here.
